from storm to flood to peaceful stream
to rain drop
Water can be clear or murky, powerful as the ocean, or powerfully subtle as the formation of caverns. Water creates life, yet can be destructive. It covers our earth. It fills our bodies. Water evokes mystery, and moodiness. Unpredictable as water is, it is useful, and it cleans things up.
That pretty much describes what I want to say and how I want my posts to be.
Oh God, I am lost and afraid and need to speak with you
What is it my child?
I want to be worthy of you but I know that I am not.
So you KNOW this, what is it you think you know my child?
There is a part of me I have tried to change and keep hidden from myself and others, to no avail… I am an abomination for sure, I cannot change this and I finally come to you, and humbly ask that you take my life, and free me from this horrible part of me.
What is this my child you speak of?
I cannot say it my Lord, I can not speak it, it is so awful.
What do you think I AM my child? You think I am some person on the street that does not know every part of your soul? I know what troubles you. I want you also to know it. And while you are at it know this … that I ,… YES I… did this to you. I created every part of you, for who you are is needed in this world.
I don’t understand my God…why?
Do not ask God why. But know I have reasons for you to be as you are, you are glorious in my sight, exactly as I created you. You are struggling, but not from my truth but from humanity’s imperfect ideas of what should be.
I AM so glad you finally came to me and asked so that you now will listen to me. I had an ever so precious idea once, the more I thought of it the more I loved it, the more I saw it could be such a divine presence in this universe. I finally created this idea and it was YOU. Your life was my gift to you, please do not ask me to take it back. Live to be the vision I saw you to be, resplendent in grace and honor. Walk past those who will not see... to those who will see you as the amazing idea I had, for it is my desire that others witness your greatness, it is part of my design.
God! I am at a loss for words, how can I live up to this?
You have been living up to this and more.. for a very long time. YOU are as YOU are, just as I AM that I AM, for a child can not be something other than it's parent.
P.S. I love you